I am a Victim so What

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I was woke up at 5 am today, and reading a book call "The Yankee way to simplify your life".
After I read few chapters, one thought came into my mind? Am I become the victim of my marriage and wife again ?
Yes I am ! so~~ I start to laugh when I start to telling myself the victim story.
I am going to wake up at 5 am everyday from now on, because I could gain more time by doing this.
I can have my own space to think without pressure, and time to read. It will be a good habit to keep.
In this book, the author mention why you want your goal ? For example, why I want to make more money?
How much do I need for me to have a better life? 50K, 60K, 70K or 100K a year? If I have the money now my dream will come true ? if I don't have these amount of money, am i still be able to fulfill my dream? When I think about achieving my goal is so depressing, and heavy, then guess it's not what I truly wanted. Chasing your lifetime goal should be fun and make me so passionated, not feeling heavy, and sad.