Faith

More I Discover my soul journey, I start to believe more and more about "Faith" and "Destiny"
Today I open the book "The Dark side of the light chasers" I rent from library the others day.
I just randomly flipping the pages, and I stop at page 121, which is talking about walking through pain to learn from it, and take the ownership. I was tinkle by it, because I have been facing this "Quest" from my marriage recently.
"Our pain can be our greatest teacher. It leads us to place we'd never go on our own." "God was trying to teach me something and that I had a special gift which I would find only if I went through the Darkness."
The whole chapter is talking about taking responsibility, stop being a victim, and I just want to say
"THIS HAD TO STOP NOW"
Taking a higher path to look over this relationship, and ask myself why I came back?
I love her, I love my daughter
Action Action Action!!
I know all these, but I tolerate myself to be an mediocre!
I am better than this